Again, sorry about yesterday's pity party. It would be very easy to delete it, because self-pity is not particularly attractive.

But there are two ways to view a blog. One is to say "Hey, I want to put my best foot forward, this is like a job interview for the world, I don't want to embarrass myself." The other is to say "This is me -- warts and all."

Therefore, because one of my mantras is "authenticity in all things", I've decided to leave it up. I am what I am, and not all of it is attractive.

I've already had a cigarette today.

Dammit.